LET’S SHOW THE WORLD October 26, 2009

Ask me to dance.

You’ve never danced?

Neither have I.

Dance with me just so we can be close.

I know people don’t approve.

It’s just a dance to them,

But to us, it’s heaven.

Let’s be open about our feelings.

Because this the only way we can be.

When the music stops, they’ll tear us apart.

Because to them this dance means nothing.

But to us, this dance means everything.

So ask me to dance.

So that we can be close once more.

With this dance we break all the rules.

A love that neither is nor will ever be allowed.

Let us show them with this dance that we won’t give up.

GOING BACK. October 26, 2009

Don’t look this way,

I don’t want our eyes to meet again.

Don’t speak to be now,

I just got your voice out of my head.

Can’t we go back?

Can’t it be like it was?

Before my heart started pounding.

Before my eyes lit up at the sight of you.

Can’t I go back?

I want to.

You don’t know it,

But you are the one stopping me.

Your eyes.

Your voice.

Your smile.

I know you don’t mean to.

I know you’d never cause me pain of purpose.

So don’t speak to me.

Just for a little while.

I’ll get through this.

And you’ll never know it even happened.

CALLING OUT. October 25, 2009

Don’t turn Your back on me.

Can’t You see I need You.

Come back to me.

I can’t get through this without You.

I felt You here once before.

Let me know You are still here now.

I realize Your back isn’t turned from me.

Mine is turned from You.

I can’t hear You.

I can’t feel You.

I can’t see You.

I know You’re there.

Crying with me.

Sharing this pain with me.

But I need to hear Your voice.

I need to feel Your touch.

I need to know You’re there.

Rap Your arms around me.

Tell me You’re here.

YOU tell me it’s alright.

Because only then I’ll believe it.

You’re the only one who knows me inside and out.

You’re the only one I trust completely.

I have faith in You.

A faith I don’t understand.

But even the most faithful waver.

So come and hold me close.

Because You’re the only one I need.

You’re the only one who can pull me back from this place.

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Matthew 11:28

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

“No Disc” October 19, 2009

It’s like a CD player flashing “No Disc.” Without that disc the CD player is useless. No matter how many times you put that lid down it continues to say “No Disc” and not work. And it’s the same with Christians. No matter how many time we try to work without God we can’t.

Can a Christian really live right without God? Of course not. It’s what we were made for. Just like that CD player was made to play CDs; we were made to live for God. A CD can be played by many other things such as a computer or a gaming system, but a CD player can only play CDs. In the same way God works with many other things and does not have to use us Christians. But unlike God we can’t survive without him, so in turn just like that CD player becomes obsolete, we too, without God, become obsolete.

DANCE WITH ME. October 16, 2009

Come dance with me.

Don’t leave me standing here alone.

Isn’t this music enticing.

The beat going in your head,

Now listen to your pulse.

Isn’t it as though your heart is dancing too?

Don’t you feel the heat in the room?

The only lights in the room are spot lights.

The colors and shapes twirling around the room.

The Rhythm prompting your body to move.

Come over here.

Dance with me.

Dancing close, isn’t it nice?

Twist your hips.

Put your hands up.

Close your eyes and just let the music take you.

Don’t stop till the music ends.

Ready to go again?

THE FINAL GOOD-BYE. September 28, 2009

Sitting in a crowd.

Closed in tight.

Talking all around,

But I don’t hear a sound.

Starring out the window.

Not really seeing.

Trapped in a world of my own.

Memories flooding back.

I could see you and me.

Seeing us together brought tears welling up.

Could I really live in this world without you?

Why did our lives fall apart so young?

When life had just begun.

It wasn’t supposed to end this way.

Tears fell freely now.

My sister took my hands in hers.

When we were kids those hands would calm me.

But not now.

I didn’t want any comfort now.

I wanted you.

But you weren’t here.

The preacher called for the family.

I rose and took my place up front.

I laid the rose down on your casket.

It’s then I realized you’d never be here again.

You were gone.

And I was left alone to face the world without you.

SOMEONE TO SHARE THE TEARS WITH. September 21, 2009

Tears filled my eyes.

Not knowing you were there,

I let myself cry.

I sobbed loudly knowing no one heard me.

I had no idea you were standing there.

I wouldn’t have cried if I knew you were there.

You didn’t say a word as you walked to me.

Wrapping your arms around me.

I didn’t even question who it was.

I already knew.

I wept louder.

You held  me tighter.

I didn’t notice it at first.

But there was a cold drip on my neck.

You were crying.

I turned and wiped your tears away.

“Why are you crying?”

“Because you are.

When you hurt, I hurt.

‘I will weep with you in sorrow, and rejoice with you in blessings.’”

I smiled through my tears.

“Your pain is my pain remember?”

I cried harder.

He took me against his chest and held me tight.

“You don’t have to cry alone anymore.”

THE PATIENT LOVER. September 21, 2009

I waited so long for you.

But you didn’t come.

You’ve been gone so long.

The snow is starting to fall now.

Do you remember what we said?

How we would watch the first snow fall together.

Love, the first snow has come and gone.

Yet you’re still not here.

Spring is upon us now.

Flowers will soon be in full bloom.

And still I wait for you.

My love and devotion are still as they were.

I’m waiting Darling.

Though the years may pass,

And I may grow old,

Still I will wait.

Story. October 19, 2008

This is basically a short story I wrote, I guess.

I ran, but I couldn’t keep up. You were just walking, but I still fell behind. You stopped to look back at me. You stretched your hand out. My heart was pounding in my chest. I reached both hands out to grab yours, but I just couldn’t reach. I slipped, falling straight to the ground

Why couldn’t I reach you? Why were you so far away?

My tears streamed down my face. While they fell to the ground, a lite cool touch wiped my tears. I jerked my face to yours in front of mine. You spoke to me as you always had. “Didn’t I tell you I would always be here?”

I clasped your hands off my face and into mine. “But you were so far away. I was running and I couldn’t get to you.”

You smiled that smile I had longed to see. “I’m right here. I always will be.” You took me into your strong arms, turned my face to yours and lightly kissed my forehead. “I love you.” you whispered.

Burying my head into your chest I whispered back, “I love you too.”

Random thought: Heart Break. May 9, 2007

I never knew the pain that people felt when their loved ones broke their hearts. I was always broken by a crush and soon got over it. I had always heard how bad it felt, but one day someone dear to me, their heart was broken and I saw so much pain. From that day on I said I never wanted to see it again, and I went on thinking I never would. But, it happened again. This time it was the one dear to me that did the breaking, and I got to see the results from another side. This time it was a friend who was hurt. I had heard about one of my good friends being hurt, but I wasn’t there. And then I realized I had done it myself. Why do we have to hurt the ones we care about the most? And then dismiss it by saying ‘It’s life.’. ‘It’s part of being in a relationship.’ Well, if that’s right, then why would I want it. Is a relationship worth the chance of heart break?